trundler
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Well I suppose it depends on how you define that term but the crux of what I've said is true regardless. I've basically been using OT for that purpose and I've gotta say having another person who understands you is very comforting. Cue the angsty teen references but the thing is you cant relate to the constant being an outsider thing and IF you find one of your own you cling on to them.
Edit: I have no delusions regarding the fact that in the long run, everyone you'll ever meet is replaceable, however. Still, it's a friendship I cherish and simply can't put the ice on. There are many, many layers to this that make me feel like I have a responsibility as someone who has come to terms with the harsh realities she is just about to face. For starters, I have to get the lesson that you've got to keep your head low through to her. Hard to explain.
Edit 2: there's a not dim possibility that in a strange way my ego could be feeding off of this situation and that I may have an inflated sense of self-importance. Feelings are too ****ing complicated.
Edit 3: am I overthinking this just so I can avoid studying?
Edit: I have no delusions regarding the fact that in the long run, everyone you'll ever meet is replaceable, however. Still, it's a friendship I cherish and simply can't put the ice on. There are many, many layers to this that make me feel like I have a responsibility as someone who has come to terms with the harsh realities she is just about to face. For starters, I have to get the lesson that you've got to keep your head low through to her. Hard to explain.
Edit 2: there's a not dim possibility that in a strange way my ego could be feeding off of this situation and that I may have an inflated sense of self-importance. Feelings are too ****ing complicated.
Edit 3: am I overthinking this just so I can avoid studying?
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